I wanted to die

This time last year, I thought I was the happiest man on earth. This time two years ago, I never felt so angry with life. I still had hope, but my heart was dark and my spirits were crushing. I knew things would get better. This time three years ago......I wanted to die. I have come a very long way in life, but it wasn't without tribulations. A wise woman once told me "When you have problems and life seems hard, you cry yourself a river, build a bridge and get over it". Sometimes it's hard to do.....but it's made me the strongest person I could ever be. Life always seems to haunt you.....complicating things. Once you call it haunting....you know it's time to remove it from your life....because it can't be present for your life to be magnificent. I have always been blessed with somebody to support me in my hard times. Keep me even-keel. Remind me that I have something to live for. Three years ago....if I would've killed myself, I would not have experienced some of the happiest moments of my life. I had to purge those things from my life......because it constantly haunted me. Every place I looked it was a reminder. But when I removed those things.....life was great. Light always comes after dark. Things always get better when if you don't give up.

Thoughts

so many thoughts running through my head
to many thoughts as I lay in my bed
mind grows full no need to be feed
no thoughts good, thank god I ain't dead

Bad news cometh and bad new grow
Visions of truth is you you must show
Realization comes and now I know
Heart turns cold like the white snow

Drive in the silence to sort out my mind
speed down the street like a felon in a bind

Maybe tomorrow I'll open my eyes and see
dawn of a beautiful day, woe is me