I thought I was over this...but...apparently I'm not. As I'm sittin at home on a Saturday afternoon......I looked at my amp...and guitars...effects pedals and what not....and it really hit me........I'm not in a band anymore. I mean, I KNOW I'm not in a band but.....it's to the point where it..... feels awkward. Even though we didn't practice since the beginning of the year, there was always that hope of, maybe next, maybe next week, maybe next week. But now.......end of the road.
I have never really been the one who......let things get to me, I try my hardest not to take anything personal......but for some reason.....something just wont let me let this go. Initially, I thought I'd just be....sad for a few days. But it's left a void in me. I haven't even played guitar since that day, until Thursday. I've never willingly NOT played for that long. It's almost like...my passion for music stayed with the band, while I parted ways.....but I've found it again. It's almost like a bad break-up lol.....gotta get a rebound band that I wont love lol.
But, atleast I don't have any body around to hold back MY ideas....so, in a way, I feel free. Well....God's closed this door for me, to find the next door God has opened for me.
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