Keep...on...fighting.

I wanna make you proud....but how can I when I can't help but to be disappointed in myself. I should have and could have been something greater. No, that I won't be eventually, but I should be. I can't help but feel like things are passing me by and getting out of control... comprehensibly fast. I try....but then it isn't enough....and when it's enough it's to much. Maybe I'm just burnt out and need some R&R. I mean, life is spectacular and I'm blessed to have one....but I feel like I've stopped myself for having a better one. I wish I knew. This has been a trying chapter in my life.....and I've grown from it. I just hope, once I turn the page, I can look back and say it was all worth it. I'm tired of the shoulda, woulda, coulda.....I just wanna say "NAILED IT!!!" and make you smile up above. I miss you grandpa....and one day...I'm gonna make you proud.