Freedom through neutrality

I'm frightened sometimes, by the things that go through my head and on my heart. People say be true to yourself, yet sometimes, I feel like I don't know my true self. Sometimes I feel like a shell of what everyone wants me to be. Other times, I feel like the embodiment of what I want myself to be. I'm starting to understand that there's both a light and dark side to everything in life. There's a balance that's needed in life. Not just within the world, but also within each individual. I think most people tend to favor one side over the other, depending on the person. I think we all, especially myself, need to embrace both sides to become whole. None of us are Jesus Christ, son of God. None of us are perfect, pure or 100% good. None of us are Satan, walking around pouring pain and chaos on the world. We are all shades of gray. There is true freedom through our neutrality.