You live........and you learn. Learning......sometimes......just hurts. It can bring the strongest person you know to their knees in a puddle of tears wondering "Why me?". I guess, that's only when we don't wanna learn. I've come to learn.....I just can't change everything I want it life. Sort of my...coming to terms that I'm not 100% in control. When things don't work out the way you want, when you pray for answers and the answer you get is the direct opposite of what you want....learning gets hard.
It's important to learn. I come to think, that the more something hurts when you learn it, the more you looked away, because it's not the first time it's been shown to you. Like the 3-strikes bs, you break the law 3 times and you get life in prison. If you don't learn, it consequenses get worse.....and worse........and worse.........and worse. If we would learn the first time, we probably would never experience that type of hurt.
It's kind of hard sometimes tho. It's not like we're a football team (GO COWBOYS!). It's not like when we make mistakes we can go to the film room and review. Then after we see what went wrong, practice to remedy the problem. We tend to forget what we learned. Not instantly, but after time....once things go right. We....regress. It's not bad, it's not like we didn't learn, we just....haven't practiced. I know myself, I'm the weakest when I'm overwhelmed in situations that I haven't been in before. We talk all this mess about what we WOULD do, but then when it's game day, we're lost.
I's rather be that....then refusing to learn and willingly putting myself in a vicious cycle. It's like a man/woman who cheats and gets caught. I think, most people would stop.... I would hope at least. But then you have people who continue to cheat, over and over and over again. And every time things end the same. But they refuse to learn. Cycle continues.
All in all, life is full of experiences and....like they say, history repeats itself....because we don't learn.
If you don't mind me being personal and open, my problem was relationships. If you are a certain way in your relationships and they ALL end the same or face the same hardship, it's time to think. If it's just one time, then yeah, maybe it's the person. But if it's over and over, it's time to look with in yourself, because the problem is oneself. I'm not beating myself up, because I wasn't the ONLY problem, but I contributed. But, I can say I've learned. I'm still learning and growing. Reflecting and working on improving on myself. Learning and growing is the name of the game. I have my playbook, I've added plays and I'm remembering them. I hope you have yours, because it's game time.
