Misery loves company

Why is that thought?? Why does misery love company? It's seems like, when people are down, and I mean that DOWN down. That down where you go "DANG, this foo' needs help from God" . The Debbie Downer type down. That "WOW, your entire life is just depressing" down. That's pretty down lol. But why is it.....when people are that down, they just feel the need to bring everybody else down??

For instance, for the past 2 days, I've been dealing alot with my father. And every time I call the guy or he calls me, I'm just thinkin "are you TRYING to depress me???." I wish I could play ya'll one of the voicemails right now lol. But every time it's "blah blah (siiiigh) blah blah blah blah blah (siiigh) and blah blah blah (siiiiiigh) and other negative things that have NOTHING to do with the matter at hand (siiiiiiiigh) blah blah blah (siiiiiiigh) blah." It doesn't help that he's talking with the most depressing tone of voice either. It's like he's intentionally screaming "pity me, pity meeeee!!!" It's a waste, cause I'm really the wrong person for that lol. I have no pity for anyone, including myself. You would think they'd realize, the more unwilling you are to project your depression, the more likely it is somebody will comfort you.

Now, some depression every now and again, perfectly normal. I had to deal withit myself recently. How did I deal with it? It was peoples willingness to help, willingness to listen, because I'm not a normally depressed person. MANY many thanks to a certain friend of mine, cause she really helped me get over it and set me on the right path (even if she doesn't realize it). Effin love you!! It's like, when you treat a beautiful woman like garbage and she's eattin out the palm of your hands. It's something that's not the norm, so there's more of a reaction. But when you soak in a constant state of depression, people didtance themselves from you because you the constant attempts to bring them down to their level.

I mean, it's different when you just need to talk to somebody because there's somethin on the mind. Somethin makin your heart heavy at the time and you just need to vent, get it off the chest. That's why we blog yes? It's why we write poems, draw pictures, play music. We do it, partly because we want to, but deep down inside, we do it to keep from being that Debbie Downer. Ya dig?

Is it intensional??? I'm sure they'll deny that it is. But it's like.....when a person says they aren't jealous of men hittin on their girlfriend or wife, but deep down inside, they just wanna chin check every dude they looks her way. Or people that so easily shrug things off, like nothings a big deal, but deep down inside, they're torn and crying. It's a subconcious thing I guess. Kind of how people are almost....programed to do certain things, without knowing why.

Well, misery may love it's company, but it better the the ever loving hell away from me lol.